I am so weary Lord.
These burdens seem overwhelming.
You are my defender, come to my aid.
My questions are flung at the night sky,
Carried away on the breeze.
There is so much pain, I can feel it settling around me in heavy folds.
You are my crevice to find refuge Lord.
Do not hide the break in the wall.
I am clinging to you until my bones feel brittle.
Please give me the peace I crave, allow me to lay down these heavy garments and walk free.
My solace is only in you God.

Lord you are all things and in all things
We are but grains on sand on this earth
But you know us
You have blessed us and called us by name
I praise you and lift your name high.
You have given to me beyond my greatest dream
I am surrounded by those you call blessed
I am in love with you, proud to be your bride
You dress me in splendid robes and place jewels around my neck
I am ever covered by you glory
You grace and majesty abounds
You lord are most high
And I call you my dwelling place

Lord you are the light that shines upon me.
I bask in your presence with my arms slung wide.
I am warmed to my core, my cup overflows.
Even when I feel empty, You are there to take my hand.
You fill my heart with joy and my mouth with song.
You provide the grace that I crave eventhough I am undeserving.
You have folded me into your wing and kept me from the storm.
You are my protector, my guard, and my song.

Lord, your voice is clear even in the storm. Thank you for giving me the ability to worship through my senses. For touch and taste and smell. For being awestruck with the labor of your hands.

Lord, when I begin to doubt you
When the clouds gather over my head
You show me your fingerprint
I see through your eyes

Your word to me tonight is that You are in the details.
The veins and stems
The petals and leaves
The blooming and the withering.

You are these beauties
You are this life giving breath
You are the Master Creator

You are beautiful.
Thank you Lord for your majesty

my family and I are writing stories about how we came to walk with God. I thought I would post mine for you all to read. xoxo

Salvation is a strong word, one of my favorites, along with grace and mercy. The fact that they are given freely is the most amazing gift we can ever receive.  I was “saved” when I was young, but like many people I fell away and fell away hard. It was more of a train wreck than a falling away. It was a deep dark place plagued with sickness and deception; and when I hit bottom all the air went out of my lungs and I was lifeless. I stayed in a fog for many days, not caring if I ate or drank. I would sit for hours staring at nothing, thinking of nothing, trying  my best to be nothing. Nothingness cannot stand in the light of God, He will not bear it. God was gracious to me, He spoke words directly into my heart and they soothed my ragged soul. In that moment, the color returned, my eyes focused and my heart began to beat rapidly. He bound me tightly to Him in that moment and I began to change. He gave me a path to walk and a heart for broken women. He has tended my garden and cut back the weeds exposing a kaleidoscope of color. He has made me beautiful from the inside out. I care not for this world, but for the world to come. I am His arms and hands, I am a walking vessel of His affection and He is the sweet song on my lips.

God, you are gracious in my time of need.
You have extended your hand to me
Reached for me when I needed you
You have given life to my dreams,
You are the blood coursing through my veins.
You are my provider
You reside in me
Thank you for meeting me where I am
Thank you for sealing the cracks in my heart, and placing your hand over my wounds
You are my strenght and my song
Thank you for bringing me to this place of joy, of laughter
Thank you for carrying me through the darkness and shadows
They could not cling to me with your name a breath on my lips
My soul delights in you

Lord, there is a ragged hole in me. My heart is broken, I am broken. I cannot fix this myself. Please help me. I cry out and beg for you to take this hurt, this pain. Help me heal. Help me love. I cannot love anyone unless I love you. Open my heart ten fold. Help me forget myself and my woes.

Hey friends! Posting to share with you the things I am turning over in my head. I have been studying Timothy in conjunction with the role of woman within the context of marriage. God is dealing with me on many fronts. Which is good, but as you know, pulling roots and trimming deadwood is a painful process. There are so many areas I am surrendering again and again and He is doing amazing things in my life. I have learned very hard lessons in integrity and grace in the last weeks. Please bear with me as I think and pray over these things. I do not feel free to write yet but as soon as I do you will be the first to know.

God is good and I am claiming his holiness! I’m thinking and praying for you all.

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