Father, I do not know which way to go.
I sit here immobile. I feel selfish and despicable.
It was too much too quick but now I feel obligated to do such an ill fitting task.
My mind is willing but, literally, my
Body is weak.
The weight of the responsibility weighs heavy on me.
My earthly counsel tells me I cannot do it today but how can I leave her lying there even as my body aches and my duties go undone?
I am at an crux in my thinking.
Is the guilt a nudging from you or is that my own diseased mind?
Am I at my limit or do I push further?
I want you to take pleasure in me
I want to do your will
Please speak to me
Do not leave me in the valley
Enable me to walk in your path